Tham, this is what I found. Which is the one u wan?



THAM, these are the two windmill i'm referring to. WHICH ON R U LOOKING FOR?

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And these are my DCID friends. As I'm rushing to meet team members to discuss about our FYP, I only manage to snap a few pictures with them.

And these two collages, took ytd. We had our dinner at WhiteDogCafe. We are supposed to celebrate Cai's and GL's belated Birthday. So after dinner, we head to the roof to carry out our plan. Jon and guys happily tricked them with lots of misleading clues, it ended up to be wallet! HAHA!!

Chaos!!
Spring cleaning [not done]
CNY clothing [haven't Buy]
CNY goodies [haven't Buy]

Furthermore I'm busy with...
Meetup with 5B
Meetup with christine (buy CNY clothing)
FYP proposal

So that is why I've been saying this 'I dont feel like celebrating CNY.'. Bcos I'm not ready for it.

I nearly lost my wallet just now. I've been meeting kind soul recently, phew!

I've been wanting to say this, 'Get back to life'.. Ever since my G.grandmother departed on 8/1/2009. She's my greatest granny, or fact, the greatest Senior(elderly) in the family. Telling you I'm not sad, I'm definitely lying. After all, she took care of you when I'm small, shield me from canes, and stuffs money in my pocket to buy things/goodies I like. Furthermore, I always visit her at least once in every two weeks, will I not feel sad?

My granny used to say 'I don't want to bring trouble to you people, .........', and she really din. And certainly she din, even after she died, she din let us trouble about the planning and money issue (she talked about it and reassure her will is carried out). Everything went smooth and fast, that we din believe she's gone now.

Every now and then (even though it only happen 2 weeks ago), my tears will fall whenever I think about her, that explain why there were some unpublished post. I din know how to continue it. At least I'm facing it now.

Like what my sister said, after grieving for the loss of love one, we should learn to love the love ones around you. YES.. Of course.. Apart from that, I've so many things I am to learn from my granny, she has too many learning point for the descendant to learn and reflect on. She's the greatest and I will remember her as long as I could (if I ever forget, I will look into those precious pictures took in the past). I will also chant for her, for the boundless/compassionate loves she showered on her love ones, and people who's in need.

Many say, time will heal everything. But before the time comes, I might have gone crazy by the agonies. We shouldn't live by memories, yet those memories were to precious to be left behind.

Dont ask me to live behind those memories; I cant do it.
Dont ask me live with it; Bcos I will not be able to move too far.

In such case, I have nothing much to say, but 'let time prove everything'

Tell me these days are all dreams and illusion.
I cant stop myself to ask 'Are all these dream? When can I stop dreaming and get back to reality?
It breaks my heart at times, to think back those good old times and that you are gone.

Please bring me back to once it used to be......

Hello.. I'm back.

Sat and Sun were well spent at Redhill Close. Me, Cheryl, Adorra, Yvonne, Stine and her friends went down to volunteer to paint elderly's home. It was organised by RP, meaning we bring joy, doing good deeds, in the same time, we get CE Points.. GREAT isn't it?

Anyway, it was awesome, getting to experience different living condition. The home we visited the first day was dirty and messy, we have to move our hands to move the uncle's stuffs out and to another side of the room b4 we start painting. It was tough, but great achievement, after seeing pure white walls and ceilings. It was the first time I ever dip my hand into a pail of dirty water (almost black), and clean the floor using hands. I was smart enough to prepare a small bottle of soap to wash my hands and legs.. PHEW..

Second day was way better. The home is quite clean, although the auntie has piles of plastic filled with I-don't-what's-inside stuffs in the living. Our duty was to paint the toilet (but we eventually focuse more on kitchen). Pieces of old paint fell off, and we have to scrape the ceiling and wall, to make sure the same thing doesnt fall off again. But well, lots of thing happen thru out, and we couldn't get it done on time that we expected. And some idotic idiots came over to rush us, as if we doesn't want to get it done ASAP. But eventually we got everything done b4 we leave, it was a even great acheivement, as we conquered the obstacles (what a word to use).

After the whole event, I was actually thinking about getting myself involved into some volunteering service, to help needy people, especially during this recession period. Yes, if anyone has some lobang, I please intro... (see, I even dip my hands into a pail of black dirty water and clean up the dirtest floor I ever seen. Don't u see my sincerity?) =P

My granny admitted hospital on the Sunday morning, and I din realise it until the evening. She complaint that her legs hurt alot, so my parents rush down to check on it, and decided to call ambulance after seeing the pain she's in (I dont even know why my grandfather can't call the ambulance for his mother, whose in great pain. Giving fucking lame excuses that he dont know how to call the ambulance and don't know the address and etc, as if he's not staying there)

She admitted to hospital bcos of the leg pain, but ended with a series of problem. She viomitted afew times, went in X-ray, scan, and etc, and realise that apart from the leg pain, she has holes in her stomach or gastric or liver (I am not sure about the detail) and might need an operation.. How can they even expect an old woman, bout 95 years old to undergo such operation. Its too dangerous and she's too weak for it too. Thinkin about it gives me a creep and it worry me alot.. Please get well granny..

Time for bed, will update more tmr.. and pictures will be up soon.

I will be busy after today. Very, actually.
I given my last weekend break to volunteer to paint home for the folks. If I'm not wrong, we r helping out at Redhill close and Telok Blangah Cresent. I hv no idea if there are other helpers other den ppl from our school. Cos its rather impossible to paint all the home with so little ppl.

I'm rather excited about it. Christine's family, her friend, me and my sister contributed some money, to buy some stuff for the folks there. And of course Christine and her mama were the ones who bought and choose those stuff for them (Christine even check the nutrition value b4 buying those stuff!). So hope that the fortunate folks who received our gift will love those stuff we got for them!

A mixture of uneasy. I'm quite afraid of those unexpected insects living with the folk. And also some folks who share the similar sentimental values as my granny, who treasure their stuff, which some is unnecessary. Cos it will take alot of persuasion skills! Pray hard there won't be any miscommunication! hahah!

I'm looking forward for tmr to arrive. Now, i need to pack my stuff. I've got plenty of stuff to prepare, as I dont trust RP system at all! Other den that, I will have to bring my necessary stuff, like makeup set, lipstick, mirror and etc for tmr (joking).

Enjoy ur weekend! Here I go.... ZOOM!

Its 1/1/2009! Happy New Year... Pull our ears..

Everyone believe its a good time to plan ahead, and to start a new life. But me, I'm not likely to think that way anymore.

1/1 make me feel worst than before, I don't know if its just this year or whatever so... What I usually do in the past was staying home, infront of the screen, watch TV or MSN, and doing a countdown to the start of the year. Ytd was totally different. Mummy is away from Singapore. I went over to Weizhi's BBQ (it was only a few of us, but it was fun though ... bloody Weizhi spray the artifical snow on me, I shouldnt leave mercy, when I see his cuts on his leg, I should have given him a surprise attack as I planned to!) I decide to leave early, as I have to catch last bus.. Cabby with midnight charge is really a bomb!

So ended up, looking outside of the bus, feeling lost and lonely. I was unsure about the time; don't even know when it striked 12. I was flooded with many random and stupid thoughts. Those memories were all agonies. Every year, I've something in mind that I aim for, this time round, I was clueless what to achieve and what I've acheived.

I hardly had a good sleep, even its holiday. Forced to awake by my brother, turning my mood to blue again. So from 12am till now, I hardly laugh or smile.

So tell me is 1/1 a good head start? Should I even believe that if u manage to pass ur first day smoothly, the days ahead will be smooth too? None of this apply to me. So let me off...